I don’t think you can believe this, but a deep peace settled into my soul. I did not know where I would go from here or what I could do. I didn’t feel any better about my life. But I relied not on my efforts to love God or know His ways, but on His mercy and grace to Love me and my hope in His promises of forgiveness and cleansing before His Heavenly White Throne. I am convinced I will see the Gates of Heaven and they will open up, as Jesus’ arms will open to embrace me. I was in fear of Him, not because I feared His wrath of destruction, but because of the immensity of WHO He was and what He did create and what He would do. I am leery of a Heavenly father, the term still upsets me, but I have a Lord to guide me into His love. Christ came to save the world the first time, with his sacrifice and complete fulfillment of God’s Law. His next visit will be to take names and kick ass of those who do not recognize him as Lord and Savior. I no longer had to fear His wrath, because I was now one of His. So I have belief that one day, I pray, you can receive, for even belief is by God’s grace. This I do not understand, but I do know. I now have a quandary, for I have an obligation to perform. I must finish the path I chose, to rid this corrupt world of a purely distorted and evil influence and his devilish weapon. I won’t ask your forgiveness for involving you and your beloved wife in my schemes. I apologize for my horrendous miscalculation. I was unaware I was suspected, hadn’t I passed the last test with the gunning down of Alain? It was told to me that ‘Vengeance is Mine, saith the Lord.”, but I don’t comprehend that. I really don’t yet understand God’s way. Maybe I will be the instrument for His revenge. Although my hatred is strong, it is not to right a personal wrong against me, as it is to exterminate a vermin carrying a plague of supreme self-interest and disregard for anyone in his way. Maybe I can be His tool to right a wrong that I unwittingly involved you in. God can forgive, but I am on a mission I must complete, if I am allowed to. It was an impossible task on my own, against odds I never faced before. Maybe I was destined to do this. It will be done if it is God’s will. If I cannot do it, I believe He has someone else who can. But, I do not see with God’s eyes, he has allowed countless millions to die in countless wars. There will be an accounting eventually, maybe I will be one the slaughtered saints crying out for justice. Maybe hundreds of thousands of innocents and not so innocents will be slaughtered. I only know I was lost, and even though I die, I am of the Way now, something I will never stop being. Yet as David, a man after God’s own heart, had bloodied hands, I fear I will soil mine, pray it will not include the innocent. I have little more to say Uncle. I wish you luck in your task, and I pray that I will do the will of God in what I must do. You answered the call to duty, national service in a bloody war. You carry the wounds to this day, so I know you have felt the call to possibly lay down your life. I will do no less. Jack Grimm, No longer merely a British Agent, but an Agent of Righteous Action.